I'm picking myself up, dusting off my pants, and mending my broken heart after another failed cycle. Dana and I had our 3 frozen embryos transfered in Aug. As usual everything was looking great. My lining was a perfect 10, the embryos looked as good as the day they were frozen, and meditation was keeping me calm and relaxed. We decided not to tell anyone or blog about it because we didn't want to go through the heartache of having to tell everyone it didn't work. What a relief that was! We did receive a positive test but things didn't look so swell on the ultrasound. Needless to say, our dream of having a little one ended shortly thereafter. The second positive that I got from this cycle was HOPE. It almost worked. I'm confident that it will work for us, I just wish it would be sooner rather than later.
Instead of turning to Cold Stone, I turned off the computer. I didn't want to read about other people's babies or those who were expecting or even trying to conceive. This may sound awful to my blogging buddies but I hope you understand that sometimes I just need to get away from it all in order to stay sane. In times like these I need to regroup, come up with a new plan, and get baby off my brain. I feel refreshed and ready to blog again. I hope you hang in there with me as the roller coaster ride continues.
Thanks to many of you who sent me emails and left comments checking in on me and wondering what happened. Sorry I didn't respond but know that your words touched my heart and were much appreciated. Thank you.
I am so sorry to hear about that! I was wondering what happened to you! Us bloggy friends do miss you!
ReplyDeleteI understand why you've stayed away. When Matt and I were trying and nothing was working it made me crazy to see pregnant people or babies. It is easier just to avoid it.
I hope things only get better for you from here on out. :)
I'm glad you are back! And I'm so sorry that it didn't work out. I had a bad feeling when you went missing. :(
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