Happy Birthday

Well today is my 36th birthday.  I've been absolutely dreading it.  In my mind it only means the gap is closing for Dana and I to try to have another baby.  My mom called me at 6:30 this morning.  I was able to keep it together until I hung up.  After the call I had a complete melt down.  Not only does it mean our window of opportunity is closing but Ryan's birthday is only a month away.  I can't believe it, I just can't believe it.  Some how I was able to get myself together and make it to work.  The best part of the day was the present from Dana.  Before I left in the morning he told me to look at my wrist.  The first thought that popped into my mind was that he wrote on me.  I started looking at my wrist and discovered he added a charm to my bracelet.  Now I have a picture of Ryan's lion.  On the back he had engraved Ryan the Lion.  It made me so happy.  He was so sneaky about it.  Dana even called one of my friends to get her help.  Every time I look at it a tearful smile appears.  That night we went out to dinner at Kings Fish House.  It was good but it didn't leave us wanting to hurry back.  We almost didn't make it to dinner because I couldn't get the waterworks to stop.  Once again I pulled it together.  It really wears me out to be on this emotional roller coaster.  Well it's over and hopefully I can get on with trying again without worrying about my age.

Lisa